Today I'm Grateful

My best friend challenged me to start writing about what I'm grateful for every day. So what better time to start than now.

Today, I'm grateful for my family, specifically my Aunt Bert who has shown unconditional love and support for me since the first time she saw me as a baby. I do not know where I'd be without her.

I'm grateful for the opportunity to get an education. I might not be doing what I thought I'd be doing at this point in my life but at least I have something that says I'm capable. My degree was a goal that I set my mind to and accomplished and I'm happy that I stuck with it and proved it to myself.

I'm grateful for my health. I have issues that I have to deal with but for the most part I am healthy. I'm blessed to have access to doctors and medicine that keep me going and in good shape.

I'm grateful for my friends who remind me every day that I'm a special person deserving of love and loyalty. They have always been a great source of support and encouragement and they have accepted me when I wasn't sure people would. I love my friends and I know they love me for just who I am.

I am grateful for my community. Here in Portsmouth the black community has something special going on. We come together to make life good for everyone. I've grown up in a great place and I have so many very wonderful memories of my childhood and teenage years. I'm lucky to have been blessed to be a part of my neighborhood and our lovely little portside city.

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