Gratitude Journal

What am I grateful for today?

I am grateful for a comfortable home. We're not rich but we're far from poor too. I've always felt like home was a place I was always welcome and where I can be myself.

I'm grateful for those friends I have who support me financially. They definitely don't have to do it and I appreciate the help they give when they are able to.

I am grateful for the luxuries of cable and internet because they keep me from being bored and they allow me to do a little bit of work for myself from home.

I'm grateful for the books I have because they've taught me a lot about things that I'm interested in, particularly history and politics.

I'm grateful for my experiences growing up, because they have taught me to be appreciative of the life that I have.

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